we're not 1. not 2. not 3. not 4.
we're gonna win. not lose. not fail! we're the.....MUSCULAR SUNSHINE!

still, because of me. this suck-ing leader. our team lost.
is it a Murphy's Law?
wherever i go, or anything i involve, it will not success.

you might is not true. it is just because i lack of confidence.
you're wrong.
I mean it when I said WE'RE GONNA WIN

what am I good at actually?
I've got no idea.
I'm starting to think if I'm good at anything.
I should
I am God's child.

Why did I fall sick?
If i did not, I can hv fun with so many others.
It is once in a life time experience.
no one has twice of Form4
time has no return.

Why didn't I have any feeling of enjoyment during the camp?
is it because I was thinking about winning but ntg else?
in this 15 yrs and 3 months, I found that whatever thing that I longed for, or expecting it to be a good thing nvr turn good. it is always beyond my expectation in a bad way
just take an example for this camp
flying for, canopy walk..everything is what I've dreamed for.
I longed for it.
I've been thinking ways to be a good leader.
so what?

evrything just didnt go well as what I've thought.
I've missed the nightdrop, the boat rafting..
ray aun!! how can u be good at everything?
good for you man.

actually I should be happy because God has answered my prayers.
which is to bless all my friends at the camp and I prayed that they'll have plenty of fun.
but I'm nt happy. I'm so selfish
just because I didn't have the fun.
how can i be like that?

when am I going to wake up and live out of this?
God knows.