AT FIRST.....

it is up to you to believe that I AM CRYING now
you are such a jerk!!!!!!! ( I am refering to someone else)
chill..just let me chill for a second..
what is his problem?
why can't he just make me like him?
today after KH class,I went to the prefect room to collect my blazer.zhi cheng came to me and gave me a key with a big monster key chain on it asking me to get a bag from my senior's locker whom the jerk is refered to. Without hesitate, i unlock the locker and got that bag out. It was quite a surprise to me that he got me something cuz'....nvr mind..forget about it
when i got into the car, i took out the card and read it
AT FIRST,when i first read the card, from my point of view, i thought he is really sorry about what he did. Somehow, i dont know why. i can see his sincerity.

Everything is AT FIRST
which means i have not unwrapped that present
it was stated in the card that it is a soft toy, patrick
and i can see it from the wrapping paper, it is from memory lane
so again, without hesitation..i unwrapped it
once it was unwrapped, as what i've expected..it is a patrick
but then when u look clearly..it has a snake ( actually is a taboo word to me ) on it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he knows very clearly that i'm afraid of it
my first reaction is to throw it away from me and shout!
ppl who read this might think it is funny but to me is never funny
i took my blazer to cover over it and went to take a bath
guess what? i was crying while taking my bath
i know this is a very stupid thing to do
but i just can't controll myself.
again..after i took my bath.. my brother saw it and scare me with it
guess what? i cried too. T.T
i shouted and just sat down on the floor and cry
thank God if he reads this.
is this what he want? to see me crying?
God knows.

ooh..just to add on..the taboo thing is still on my table..i got no idea what to do with it..